Not having a good day today. To think that just last thursday I was recovering from my depression! Eh. I woke up feeling really ill from being out in the sun yesterday so I couldn't manage to get up for volunteering. Oh well, I'll do it another day. I slept in till 5 PM. It's hot as balls outside again, so I'm about to go back in the sun to chill.
TODAY'S RATING: 2/10
I've always wondered if anyone actually reads this stuff. I find the idea of screaming into the void both comforting and unnerving.
I'm surprisingly functional today. I've been getting family to forcefully tug me out of my depression, and my parents have taught me some really valuable life stuff. I couldn't sleep very well last night, spent a lot of time staring at the ceiling. I've been thinking about how to improve the way I am, but I'm not too sure how. I've always thought of these things as innate.
I spent some time outside in the pool, swimming in circles and trying to get my mind off stuff. I haven't worn a tank top in years, it feels almost scandalous now. :P There was a beautiful little bird fluttering around us. Some white bird with gray stripes, i'll try to Google it when I'm done writing this.
Tomorrow, I'm planning on volunteering for one of the homeless shelters. I'm a little nervous, as it requires some social skills which I entirely lack. I think it'll do me good to get out in the sun and help people. I also wanted to get back into my workout schedule, but I'll probably be tuckered out after tomorrow.... We'll see, I suppose.
TODAY'S RATING: 3/10, coping.